February 2012
1 post
Sunrise, Sunset...
I fall in love with the sunrise and the sunset every day. They are constant reminders that life goes on. No matter what, looking at something in nature that is so breath-taking makes me realize that maybe tomorrow the sunrise will be more beautiful and i don’t want to miss that one either, or maybe the sunset will give me a feeling that words have absolutely no way of describing. These...
January 2012
6 posts
Never Good
i’m re-watching Everwood, season 2. i haven’t seen this show since it originally aired back when i was in high school. one episode, not the whole thing, but part of it, just stood out to me. what the 17-year-old boy (Ephraim) went through made me think of something that happened to me at age 16. saying goodbye to someone, having that conversation, that one where you mean so much to...
Missing piece.
My missing piece is 3000 miles away. I am no longer in search of one person to fill this “void” I thought was inside of me for so long. I found what was missing.
It’s amazing. Only a few days spent with people, who seem like absolute strangers on the outside, could make me feel more whole than I have ever felt my entire life. My missing piece isn’t one person. It’s...
My throat is so swollen. Great way to start a new year eh? Is this cause I was never completely sick in 2011?
Really starting to wonder if it’s me.
Sequins on my dress = scratched up arms. Totally worth it though. :)
December 2011
4 posts
Debating turning on the Xbox…..
My eyes say no, but I’m not tired…
Today is off to a good start
Once I fully get my soul back, it’s under lock and key…. http://t.co/uORiPXkN
i finally figured out what makes this so different from last time. before it was a game, who could hurt who more, how long could we hold on to the obvious nothing that was still there, how long could we say things in statues and myspace surveys that would somehow hurt the other without us really even trying. i’m trying to figure out which is worse. silence or a constant game of back and...
September 2011
2 posts
Nostalgia pt. xx
So I was listening to Something Corporate in the car yesterday, just one song “I want to save you”. I was instantly hit with nostalgia. I don’t know what it is, but music can bring me back to a specific time and place more than certain smells do. I was reminded of things that happened and were said to me before I started listening to that band. It always makes me laugh, memories...
Grade school
Sometimes I wish I could go back to high school. Not because it was the best time of my life, it surely wasn’t (as a recently found notebook indicates), but because I would do it all over. I would care even less about what people thought of me, hold on to the friends that actually cared, and pay better attention to classwork. Not to say I didn’t try or get good grades, I did fine in...
April 2011
4 posts
how long do i wait?
just ordered my ipad2…. 2-3weeks…. can’t come fast enough!
:/ let’s see how well sleep happens tonight….
“So let me save you, hold this rope and I’ll pull you in.”
December 2010
1 post
September 2010
1 post
nostalgia
so. while in search of some guitar tabs so i could play “play crack the sky” again, i ended up digging through an old three-ringed binder i made in high school. inside was poems i wrote, my favorites songs all tabbed out and printed, stories i attempted to write and the beginning of a movie script i wanted to make. i found one short thing i wrote and i want to share. it may or may not...
August 2010
1 post
May 2010
1 post
green eyed glow
just found an old folder on my computer from 2 years ago. in it was a saved ichat conversation, and reading through it now is making me giggle, blush, and be as embarrassed as i was when i had it in the first place. i wish i was still in that place. i wish i was still giddy and excited and anticipating video-chats and phone calls from someone (one person specifically). makes me wonder what...
January 2010
1 post
2010
so far, you’ve brought me nothing, 2010. but i will say, at least i now know one more adobe program, and feel somewhat comfortable making a pretty basic web site… but when asked, “hows you’re 2010 been so far” all i want to think is that it’s just an extension to 2009. i have not changed. i didn’t even make a solid resolution. i’m still dumb as ever...
December 2009
1 post
rant
here’s something i don’t understand: why people stay in relationships when they are clearly not happy. they stay when they complain about the person, and how it’s just not working, but they don’t do anything about it. i mean, yes, i’ve done this, but i don’t think ever to the extent that other people around me have. i’ve been stuck on an idea, who i...
October 2009
1 post
blank.
tell me you’re not lying to yourself, and i’ll try to believe you. tell me why you can have that and i’m still left with nothing, nothing but pain and the feeling of being alone. tell me why it’s fair that you take that for granted when i’ve played this game far longer than you ever did and i’m still left empty handed.
September 2009
1 post
sowing season
every year around this time i find myself listening to brand new. i think it started my sophomore year of high school, when i would listen to deja entendu on repeat, over and over, and i knew it word for word. i found myself returning to that album every fall the following years. then, freshman year of college they released the devil and god are raging inside of me and i again found myself...
May 2009
77 posts
i’m totally not down with rob’s alien…
most beautiful vinyl i have bought. minus the bear’s they make beer commercials like this. grey and maroon.
dancing around [to the rocky theme] in my newly spacious bedroom! all in a days work, kids. all in a days work.
or am i just wasting my time?
where are the fire flies?
so i watched the second half of band of brothers the other day. i really want to see the first half of the season… so good!
i really need to stop having messed up dreams. i’m quite tired of it.
randomly got the final countdown stuck in my head. and then i thought of Gob…
thuderstorms. family dinner at paige and erics.
little kid birthday party. kinda really excited. haha
allergies have me feeling so sick. :/
My trouble with everything always is nothing’s just right,
Just to figure out nothing could keep you awake half the night.
And a piece of cheese?
i feel like jumping around like a 15 year old. giddy. weeeee
it’s amazing how simplistic things make me have the biggest shit eating grin.
Oh, boy. I heard a song today that made me think of you. I miss your face.
phew. that went well… i think…
too many dividers in my new purse. i don’t know what to do with all the options.
okay okay @ashleygs87, i’ll tweet. don’t really know what to say right now though. haha.
sigh. i’m tried of this.
Watching a haunting on tv at work. Yes! It’s a good one
nightmare last night. not cool.
i wish i had some jazz on vinyl….
Bored. Sitting in the staples parking lot. Should have printed at school when i could have. Ugh.
Old people are funny. I hope the world lasts long enough for me to get real old, and more crazy.